Forever Beloved

Faith, Love & Truth

hello friday…

aaahhhhhh sweet friday…i love you so!  fridays mean family movie and pizza night…ghost whisperer…staying up late…spending time with the people i love most…that’s why i love fridays.

i have kinda an easy weekend coming up, which i totally need.  tomorrow i am doing a photoshoot for some head shots for modeling…and basically that’s IT…the entire rest of the day is mine.  how awesome is that?!?!  i’m thinking maybe some cleaning around the house…a little laundry…maybe some good hearty potato chowder…perfection huh?

sunday after church we have our last football/cheerleading game of the season.  i would say i’m going to miss it but i would totally be lying…i’m ready to have my sundays back!  the girls are going to perform a dance to “thriller” that they’ve worked SO hard on (and so have the advisors, lol)…i’m going to try to tape it and put it on my blog…

the vet said that mr pepper must have the doggie flu and his joints are just sore and aching…at first they thought lymes disease, which freaked me out…but the test came back negative, thank gosh!  so we went home with doggie pain meds (which he refuses to take) and he has been sleeping tons since we got home.  poor little baby…i wish i was home with him 🙁

out for now
~kisses

randomness…

totally random post here…to let you know whats been going on in my life this week…

*   one more game and then cheer is DONE for the year
*   exercise class tonight…yay!  i’m excited…jade, not so much…
*   joey went to the dr yesterday…his foot isn’t healing at all…we are going to try a bone stimulator for 6 weeks and if that doesn’t work then we are looking at surgery
*   pepper is having some sorts of foot/leg/muscle issues and i’m taking him to the vet today
*   my new exercise machine should be here tomorrow…can’t WAIT!!!
*   joe started back to work this week
*   we’ve had some gorgeous weather here this week…so thankful for that…
*   doing a little christmas shopping here and there…
*   photoshoot saturday

out for now
~kisses

keepin’ it real around here…

ya’all know i try my best to keep it real here…

life isn’t always pretty and perfect. sometimes it’s messy and hard, really hard. my hopes in sharing my “realness” are that maybe my struggles will help or inspire someone else…

family is very VERY important to me and it always has been…

i come from a close knit family, my mom is basically my best friend and i couldn’t IMAGINE a day going by without me talking to her. i love having a close family, love having a big, extended family in PA and in NY…

family struggles are hard for me to understand.

but for the past four years we’ve had one. we had a family member say some not so nice things to joe and jade (she was only 6 at the time)…and they were told to “get out”…we have not seen nor spoken to that family member since that day.

when i get hurt i get angry…

i said “never EVER again will they have the chance to hurt us”. and from that moment on i’ve stuck to my guns. even though other family members tried to plead with us, i firmly stood my ground.

recently the Lord spoke to me loud and clear…

and He started working on my hardened heart. He told me to forgive that family member and LOVE them. (although i don’t doubt that i loved them. i think that is why i was soooooo hurt by the situation, because i loved and trusted them) and i thought “oohhh man, how would i ever do that? i mean, it’s me, amy, the girl that can hold a grudge forever.” then He put a few things right in front of my face to make his point clear…and suddenly my heart DID begin to soften.

an awakening…

i’ve realized through this process that anger, grudges and selfish pride are not the answer…love, patience and forgiveness are. i know now what we SHOULD have done 4 years ago. we made the wrong choice…i made the wrong choice…and now i’m truly sorry and embarrassed of it. i don’t know how this will turn out and i don’t know what the future holds for our relationship but i do know with the Lord guiding my decisions i can’t go wrong.

please pray for us and this situation. i know it hurts my children and my husband…and me.

out for now
~kisses