Forever Beloved

Faith, Love & Truth

hello weekend…

oh weekend, i love you so…and boy do we have one jammed full of fun and friends.  isn’t that the best kind to have?  love all my friends!

tonight i’m taking the littles to pizza hut (jade has about 5 bookit coupons to use)…then we are off to walmart to get a few things.  hopefully the littles decide to get along tonight and not fight like freaks…turns out i’m not a fan of fighting like freaks in private or public…

tomorrow the boys are getting up early and heading to breakfast with the guys joe works with and then off to grices (gun store) for their big sale…jade and i are heading to bec’s at lunch time for a little “girls day”…the girls are having a barbie playdate while bec and i catch up.  we are going to have a little lunch and just hang out…can’t WAIT!  then in the evening we are going to a birthday party for my friends daugther.  it’s a skating party, woohoo, ya’all know i love to get my skate on…after that it’s out to dinner with the fam ♥

sunday we have church and hopefully a nice dinner and relaxing movie day.  i love sundays!!!!

out for now
~kisses

~~random happies~~

what is making me absolutely HAPPY today…

~ new lens and camera bag ordered
~ moms pancakes for dinner (my kids say they are THE best ones EVER)
~ exercise class tonight (aka…getting my butt kicked)
~ funniest shirts ever ordered from etsy
~ tomorrow is friday
~ american eagle 40% off coupon (heck to the yes)
~ quiet, non-stressful day at work
~ best husband ever
~ fun weekend filled to the top with friends coming up
~ owl themed valentines box, valentines, lollipops and shirt (love when a good plan comes together)

out for now
~kisses

~embracing my struggle~

you must do the thing you think you cannot do  ~ eleanor roosevelt
i fight a battle daily
a fight i’ve fought for years, most of my life infact.  i’m learning, slowly, how to take control over something that has controlled me for years.  i’ve been at it for a year and i still have soooooo much to learn!
it’s no secret, this fight is hard
and believe me, i struggle with it daily.  especially right now as i’ve hit my plateu and haven’t lost for a few weeks.  i look in the mirror and think “is THIS it, is this REALLY where i’m going to be forever?”.  i have to admit, i get discouraged.  i get discouraged and immediately my brain wants to throw me back into the cycle.  the vicious cycle most of us know…your fat which makes you depressed so you eat to comfort yourself which, in turn, makes you fatter. 
the choice is mine
i’ve learned this over the past year.  i can embrace my struggle or i can run from it.  i spent so many years turning around and running from it as fast as i could.  i would think “i didn’t lose this week so why keep trying” and i would run…straight to the cupboard and grab a bag of chips.  obviously, that way of thinking doens’t work.  now when i see i haven’t lost any i take a deep breath and think about what i could change about my diet or exercise in the following week to hopefully see a loss on the scale. 
i’ve heard it said
that although people can advise us on what to do, this is a fight we must fight alone.  i can tell you, if i had to fight this alone i would lose.  i know that every single day the Lord is on my side.  i know that everyday in every circumstance He is already there.
the picture on the left was taken october, 2008…the picture on the right is december, 2009…

– Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

out for now
~kisses

p.s….notice the nose and the difference in it since the “break”…ugh…