Forever Beloved

A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must
love one another.

family is very VERY important to me and it always has been…i come from a close knit family, my mom is basically my best friend in the entire world and
i couldn’t IMAGINE a day going by without me talking to her. i love having a
close family, love having a big, extended family in PA and in
NY…

family struggles are hard for me to understand…they are almost impossible for me to understand.  i don’t understand how you can just one day, up and not talk to your parents or grandparents anymore and continue that for years.  or how you can speak such horrible words against those that loved you so.  and when i hear those words spoke against someone i love, someone i hold so close to my heart, someone so innocent and unable to defend themselves, i can feel my anger start to rise…

you guessed it, i got angry and ugly…i defended my family tooth and nail.  i let that mama bear rise right out of me and i stood firm.  i said things that were very true, but i didn’t say them nicely.  and i know in the end nothing was gained.  all i accomplished was me coming home feeling pretty crummy about how i handled myself and losing my cool. 

this morning the answer was pretty loud and
clear…forgive that family member and LOVE them just as He loved us. and i thought “oohhh man, how would i ever do that Lord?  i
mean, it’s me, amy, the girl that can hold a grudge forever”.   

then it hit me…what i should have thought of last night before losing my cool.  anger and grudges are not the
answer…love, patience and forgiveness are. i don’t foresee a relationship in the future, just because circumstances in their family won’t allow it, but something i do know is how i will handle this in the future.  and i know with the
Lord guiding my decisions i can’t go wrong.

out for
now
~kisses