Forever Beloved

while searching the internet, i came across a forum.  i said it was “landover baptist church” so i clicked on it to read it, thinking it might really have some good insight.  what i found once i got there infuriated me.

it’s from a man called “brother alex” who is listed as a “True Christian Creation Cosmologist”.  i had to read his title a few times, because i kept reading it as cosmetologist.  which kinda makes me giggle at this point.  i could not figure out what cosmetologist had to do with a church.  anyways, i’ve not a single clue what that title even means except some crazy title he created for himself.  anyways, here was his point of view on dyslexia.

Over the past years, thousands of people have been diagnosed with a learning disability called “dyslexia”. “Dyslexia” supposedly makes people totally retarded when it comes to reading, writing, spelling, grammar and punctuation, and mentally retarded in general.

The term “dyslexia” was invented by the German doctor Rudolf Berlin in 1887. Since then this “retardation” has become a fashion amongst people, especially young students. As a matter of fact “dyslexia” was not known to mankind before Berlin’s invention of the term in 1887. Why was this phenomena not known to the ancients? There is not one spelling error within the pages of the Holy Bible KJV1611 which means that “dyslexia” cannot be a part of God’s creation.
True Christian™ Scientific studies have shown that there really is no such thing as “dyslexia” and the term has mostly been used by young students as an excuse for being lazy. There is nothing that proves that people can’t learn proper spelling, grammar and punctuation. Nothing at all!

This whole “dyslexia” thing is just yet another lie created by scientists in order to turn our children away from the Word of God. They know that if they brainwash our children and make them believe that they can’t read, they will not be able to read the Holy Scriptures. As we all know, not reading the Bible will only result in barbarism and anarchism. Our children will become lazy and disrespectful to their elders, they might even end up rebelling against- and murdering their families. The Bible forbids laziness and our children should not be allowed to get away with such behavior.

Dyslexia, ADHD, as well as other learning disabilities are just myths. If your child is suffering from such “disabilities” it is because the wrong teaching methods are being used. To keep a child on the right track when it comes to Bible studies, do not spare the rod.

Proverbs 13:24: He that spareth his rod hateth his son: but he that loveth him chasteneth him betimes.

YIC,
Brother Alex

are you as absolutely saddened by this as i was?  not only does he use the word “retarded” numerous times, which is unacceptable completely, but he also says dyslexia is a myth and a lie.  so my daughter transposing letters in kindergarten was a figment of her imagination?  or perhaps a scientist snuck into my house and brainwashed her when i wasn’t looking.

what upset me the absolute most about this was when he said do not spare the rod.  as if spanking my child will cure her dyslexia?  it breaks my heart to think of how many people in this mans “church” have taken his advice.  how many children with learning disabilities have been spanked because their disability is a “myth”.  breaks my heart.

AND it makes me sad that this man might be the only glimpse some people get of God…this legalistic, skewed view.   they won’t see a God with outstretched arms, waiting to comfort us with His grace.  they won’t see a God with such overflowing love for us that He sent His son.  they won’t see a God that loaned us our littles so we could love on them, always.  and that breaks this mama’s heart.

out for now
~kisses

have you ever felt that way?  like every single thing you do is wrong?

why is it so hard for me to stick to this stupid diet?  my husband deserves a thin, beautiful wife.


i’m a horrible housekeeper.  this house is a mess.  why is it so hard for me to get it together?


i wish i had more patience.  i yell way too much.


i’m ruining my kids.


why can’t i organize family devotion and prayer time?


i need to be a better wife.  he deserves better than me.  why can’t i just be submissive and keep my mouth shut?


i wish i had the motivation to walk every day.  


and it goes on and on and on and on.

these are the thoughts that have invaded my mind at one time or another.

accusations and lies that i’ve believed.  that i’ve allowed to invade my mind.  that i’ve bought into…hook, line and sinker.  fears of failure, worthlessness and my inability to keep up.  days sprinkled with anxiety, depression and many tears.  hours of horrible, negative self-talk in my head.  nights spent staring into the darkness believing every lie whispered to me.

we live in a world that hates failure and promotes perfection.  failure is ugly and messy.  the world wants perfectly manicured, thin, beautiful mama’s who never, ever mess up.  but when you do, they are oh-so-quick to point it out.  

i can’t tell you i’ve conquered this.  i can’t tell you there aren’t still days i buy into the lie of perfection.  but i can tell you there are things i’ve learned along the way.  little nuggets of truth that God has placed in my heart.

i need Jesus.  we were created to fail.  it’s in my failure i can see my need for Jesus, the one who never fails.  when i fail miserably, it’s the perfect time to fall into Him.  let His arms surround me, comfort me and remind me i am not, but He is.  i read this quote and instantly loved it.  because i’m with Jesus, i will walk on stormy waters, not drown in them.      

i won’t be perfect until i get to Heaven.  beauty really does come from the ashes. in God’s family, there are no failures. well actually there are nothing BUT failures. we are all failures. if we weren’t failures the cross would not have been needed. but it is and we are.

i’m covered by His grace.  i am so flawed, so imperfect, and thankfully there is grace for that.  failure is an opportunity for grace, to give it to others and receive it for ourselves.

satan is a big fat liar.  satan wants me to dwell on the list I wrote above. he loves that i feel like a failure at times.  he wants me to feel like the only failure in the world.  and that everyone has it together…except me.  the beauty of God and reality is that all of those things might mean failure to me, but they are a part of my walk with Him.        

out for now
~kisses