Forever Beloved

Faith, Love & Truth

NSD….

for those of you non-scrappers that means national scrapbook day. nsd is this saturday and holy crap, is there a LOT of great crops going on!!!!

there is an awesome one at tallyscrapper…there are SO MANY awesome challenges with super fine prizes…you must check this out! the girls there are so much fun and the inspiration, oh la la…tons of it. this is one of my layouts i did for a challenge issued over there…
it’s also almost time for a new challenge over at dreamgirls. soooo much inspiration in these challenges and the dt always rocks them out! so head over there and watch for the new one!!!!out for now~kisses

you know…i keep it real

always…i have always kept things real here on my blog. last summer ya’all followed me through my day to day dealings with joe and i being seperated. we’ve been through happy times, good times, sad times…normal day to day life. so here is another post of me keepin’ it real.

i have realized recently, through a lot of self-reflection, that i have turned into the parent that says “oh no, not my child”. normally when i think of a parent doing that i think of when their child would do something wrong they would say oh no, they would NEVER do that. and i knew i wasn’t like that, so it never entered my mind that i might be JUST LIKE THEM to some extent.

i’ve known for some time that jade struggles in school. but in my mind i always blamed it on the teachers or the school, a kid must be disrupting her, she must not have felt well…THAT is how i am like them…in my mind i was saying “oh no, not my child…there is NO WAY my child could possibly have a learning disability”. even until last week i would fight that thought tooth and nail. i’m not real sure what snapped me out of it…i can’t really tell you because i have no idea myself.

last week we had a meeting with the school discussing different options for jade. and i have to tell you, i went into that meeting ready to fight. ready to fight and INSIST that my daughter does NOT have a problem and REFUSING to listen otherwise. i think perhaps during that meeting i thought “how do i know she doesn’t”. and then my thoughts started spinning, what if i am hurting her more by NOT wanting to accept this myself…i continue to deny this, jade slips through another year at school…if i had just admitted this sooner could she have had an easier time this last year. i think it was at THAT moment that i realized what i had been doing.

and please dont confuse my realization with taking the responsibility off of the school. we have had our fair share of problems with them. and bless jade’s heart, she made it through it all. and those situations WERE the schools fault without a doubt.

now we have stumbled upon a point where we have to make a decision…HAVE to make one…and i had to think outside of my “not my child” box and think about what would be best for jade. we have decided to have her tested at the beginning of the next school year. it will be testing for emotional and academic problems (i.e. – learning disorders or basically post traumatic stress). once the testing is done THEN we will decide on an action plan. and i’m sure even then, once its in black and white, i will STILL struggle with my “not my child” mentality.

as for the testing for emotional problems (post traumatic stress)…this comes from an “incident” that happened at school when jade was in first grade (6 years old)…a very traumatic thing…and the school never EVER let us, her parents, know about it. no phone call was received from them EVER…they play it off as a mistake, it was just overlooked…but seriously, in my opinion, this girl has serious post traumatic stress…but we will see once the testing is done

so, that’s my keeping it real for today. i love this girl with all my heart and only want what is best for her, even if it means me having to admit that yes, perhaps my daughter does have a problem. she is a beautiful, fun, caring, loving and funny as heck little girl.
out for now
~kisses

well hello there…

i’m still here…just on a little vaca from the blogging world. i’ve been enjoying the awesome weather outside and just spending some good quality time with my fam. we’ve been cleaning up the outside, getting the 4-wheelers ready for summer and spending some time at camp. i just need to get started cleaning out the camper now so we can move it into camp.
saturday the kids went with the church for the entire day so joe and i had a major date day. we had SUCH fun, i just love reconnecting with him. he is such a total goof and keeps me laughing. i can’t believe in two months we will be married for 12 years. gosh, and we’ve overcame SO MUCH! i just love him to pieces.
we haven’t had some layout lovins around these parts for quite a while…i think we need some mid-week eye candy…

and an art journal entry…

oh oh oh guess what my babe bought me on date day? the soundtrack to across the universe!!!! oh.my.gosh…seriously love it. that is some serious make-me-want-to-scrap-my-ass-off music!and you big brother watchers…what did ya think of adam winning? i completely LOVE adam, i think he is the cutest thing and has such a big heart. yes, i know he picked his nose quite often AND he dug his balls all the time…but i still love him. although i could have totally done without the comment he made at the beginning of the season, the one that got him fired from his job. but hey, we’ve all made unsensitive comments at one point or another in our lives. and holy crap, i had NO CLUE that james was a gay porn star! i guess i missed all the internet gossip about that. wonder how shocked chelsea was to find that out? SHE sooooo rubbed me the wrong way. she certainly did show her age…very immature. was it just me or did this season seem to have a LOT of whining on it? i just read that the next season of bb will start july 13…so addicts like me dont have THAT long of a wait!out for now sweets~kisses