Forever Beloved

nearly a year ago i made this post…and since then, i’ve still been struggling with this decision…not a day goes by that it doesn’t weigh heavily on my mind and heart…

when joey was a baby i was blessed with being able to stay home with him for a little over a year…then i became pregnant with jade and others thought it would be better for us financially if i went to work, and so i did…that was 13 years ago…since the very first day i went to work i’ve felt my heart was at home and i knew i made the wrong decision…in my heart and soul i am a stay at home mom and a homemaker…

since that day my heart has been calling me back home…but then, tons of things run through my mind and i second guess myself and what decision i should make…will everyone will think i’m CRAZY for quitting a state job? will we be able to make it financially? at this point in my kids lives (ages nearly 12 and 14) is there even any sense in it? would they even want me at home? will everyone think i’m just lazy for wanting to stay home?

within the last year the Lord has really been working on my heart about it, especially in these last few weeks…i just feel SO strongly that He wants me in the home…He has given me a talent that i can use to be able to stay home financially (my photography business)…He has showed me that what others think doesn’t matter but my family thriving DOES…and i know that if i trust Him fully, He will provide…i am going to let Him lead me by the hand to where He wants me to be…

please…say a prayer for me, my decision, my business and my path…and hopefully within the near future i’ll be working for the best company around, my FAMILY!!!

out for now
~kisses