Forever Beloved

Faith, Love & Truth

weigh days

every saturday is “weigh day” at my house.  the most anticipated, loved + hated day of the week.

last week i woke up and got on the scale to find that since december 23rd i had actually gained 8 lbs.  i took one week off, simply one week, and that is what i gained.  needless to say, i felt pretty yucky angry about it. 

i have learned over the years that focusing on a number is a terribly bad idea.  there was a time when i would weigh myself daily.  bad bad baaaaaad idea!  my daily mood would then hinge on what that number on the scale was.  and soooo many days i would see a bad number then rush to the kitchen to eat out of frustration and disappointment.  but now, if i don’t see a change on the scale i just ask myself why and tweak what i did the week before.

so here i am, hard at it again.  although the scale was deffo not my friend last saturday i have a pretty good feeling that this saturday we will make back up.  i refuse to let my self-esteem and worth be determined by a piece of equipment and I will NOT give it that power EVER again!  simple as that.  period. 

out for now
~kisses

my journey…

wow, 2011 was quite a hard year; physically, emotionally and mentally.  my weight loss journey got pushed to the side on quite a few occasions by different things, some i could control and some i couldn’t.  there were times i wanted to just throw in the towel and give up on it (and some days i did).  i had an uncontroled job change, family stress, a broken nose and a surgery with crazy complications in the past year.  so many days it left me feeling defeated and broken.

BUT…

i refused to let circumstances defeat me and i will NOT be broken.  i am determined, now more than ever, to get this journey rolling again.  i will be starting the monthly weight loss posts again and documenting my journey.

i know what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger…and all 2011 did was strengthen me up to show 2012 who is boss…so, in february we will be starting the beginning of the month weight loss posts (complete with pics)…

out for now
~kisses

the journey must continue

i’m totally not going to lie, i’m still struggling…in august i took two weeks off from the gym (for probably no good reason at all, can’t even remember now) and then i hurt my ankle somehow, i think i pulled something…i’ve always kept it real here so no sense in stopping that now…lately i’ve felt as if everything is falling apart, like i had no control over it (which is ridiculous)…

actually i’ve struggled for months…i *knew* what i should do and what i shouldn’t…i *knew* i was giving up…but i just continued down the same old broken road, the one that led me astray years ago…

not going to lie or try to front about the weight gain either, i have put some back on…thankfully it’s not a real substantial amount…but still, i’m heading back into the territory i said i would never go again…

so, with that said, i recognize it’s time to buckle down and get to it…zumba has started back up (thank goodness) and i’m planning on starting a walking program next week as well…in november i’m planning on heading back to the gym every morning…and i’m ready to hit weight watchers hardcore…i have a plan, which is the first step, and i’m ready to get going…

i am NOT going to let this evil rule my life again…i will NOT let it defeat me…i will NOT let change and stress win…i will NOT throw all the work i’ve done in the last two years away…

i am back on track and excited to continue on my journey!!!

out for now
~kisses