Reckless words pierce like a sword ~Proverbs 12:18
every day i get up and put on a jumpsuit of “toughness”…
i have to appear tough, i would never in a million years want to appear weak to others…i would never want them to actually know that beneath the jumpsuit i am simply a girl with girlie emotions…a girl who gets her feelings hurt easily…a girl who wants and needs love and acceptance…
words are such weapons…
a bit of speaking before thinking, a touch of gossip, bursting out during stress, a careless statement…do we have any idea what we do to each other with our words? every word spoken has the power to hurt or heal, and can never be taken back…once the words are shot at us we replay them over and over again in our mind and they have a way of sticking with us…
hurting people hurt people…
their words express how they feel inside – wounded and sometimes mean spirited…even though i know that i still let their words in and they shoot straight through my heart…and then i think about them, over and over again, normally trying to figure out what it was that i did to make them feel like that…i automatically assume the guilt and feel as though it was my fault…
words have broken me, time after time…
i’m going to admit, i’m 35 and i can still replay hurtful words said to me 20 years ago just as easily as ones said to me yesterday…how can i, of all people, heal from that? how can i ever heal from that? how can i ever release all the hurtful words i’ve received and held inside like some evil treasure?
so today…
i begin with forgiveness…of the words said to me today and all the words ever said to me…i refuse to carry that burden of others words anymore…i’m tired of them dragging me down and depleting my strength…i want to feel unshackled, released and free!
♥ love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you ♥
out for now
~kisses
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Forgiving is hard somtimes, especially when you have been hurt deeply. I'm so sorry that you have been hurt so bad. But remember, words are just that… words. They can only pull you down if you let them. When you are the stronger person, you can rise above and prove those words wrong. Those who hurt with words are worse than those that hurt with fists. I always said it was harder to get over the person who hurt me with words than the person who physically hurt me. Physical bruises heal, however the wounds of hurtful words seem to last longer. You are taking such a big step and forgiving. This makes you such a special person Amy. Don't forget that. You are a great person for doing this. I admire you. It is ok to feel like this no matter what age you are. Words hurt.. this is fact. But I can see you are above all of this, and I admire this greatly. I look forward to seeing you continue on this wonderful journey and grow through this.
thanks so much emily! i always enjoy hearing from you and reading your encouraging words.